Friday, September 27, 2013


I was asked by the staff of U of M, to write a letter of support in hopes of them receiving a gift from a foundation, I was happy and honored to do so....I thought that it would not hurt to post what I wrote to them....and also share about more about our journey.
 
 
 
To Whom it May Concern:
 
 
It gives me great honor to share our heart story. A story that includes many answered prayers, countless amazing doctors, nurses and administrators, and one little rock star!

At Josie’s 4 month well checkup, the doctor discovered a small heart murmur, we were sent to a specialist. At the visit with the specialist we received the news that our “perfect” daughter was living with a heart defect, a defect so serious that it would require extensive open heart surgery.

In April I made an appointment for Josie with Dr. Grifka ( U of M), to get a second opinion. The same day I made the appointment, Dr. Grifka personally called me to hear more about Josie, her heart, and our family. In that very first conversation He listened to me through my tears, and heard my fears. Already in that first phone call, I began to feel the “Michigan Difference”

After a meeting with Dr. Grifka and his team, we decided to move forward with a surgery consult with Dr. Ohye. Our meeting with Dr. Ohye impressed all of us (including Andrew and I’s parents). Dr. Ohye was so well educated on the heart in general, but he was also familiar with the every detail of Josie’s heart. He spoke to me on that day with true respect and appreciation. He understood that although this might be his millionth surgery (probably not quite that much) it was my first time at heart surgery, and Josie was my baby. He understood the difficulties that parents would face placing their children in his hands to have a major surgery, and He did not take that burden lightly.

Fast forward to June…June 20, the day before Josie’s surgery. Mott did such an amazing job planning out the prep for surgery. Every, I mean every person that we met that day for the greeter at the front desk to the resident doctor, sat with us, answered our questions, and reassured us that they would do everything in their power to make this go as smooth as it possibly could.

I was actually able to sleep the night before Josie’s surgery. I believe a lot of that had to do with the prayers of our friends and family, but I also think it was largely due to the confidence that the staff of Mott’s gave me during our day of prep. I realized through that long day of tests, that the staff of Mott’s is extraordinary!!!! All of us walked away from that day feeling blessed that we had chosen to U of M!

Josie’s surgery was uneventful! Praise God! When we were brought back to see her, we were introduced to our nurse, Sam. Sam would give Josie and us, one on one attention for our first hours in the ICU. Sam encouraged me to focus on the little things that were still normal about Josie’s appearance. She pointed out Josie’s curl that laid over her right ear… (To this day, I call it her “Sam curl”)….She brought beauty to a really difficult situation.

Our stay at Mott’s was a short 5 days. In 5 days we met such amazing people, people that almost felt like family when we were leaving.  One thing that stood out for my husband and me while we were at U of M was how much the employees loved their jobs. They shared that they loved their jobs because of the families they work with, their colleagues but, also because they felt encouraged to learn more, and better themselves by the management of Mott’s.

It gives me such great joy to share about our experience with Mott’s because I hope that they continue to have the resources to continue to bless countless other families like they blessed us! We felt the Michigan difference over and over! The staff and the future of Mott’s children’s hospital is now included in my daily prayers. My prayer is that God continue to bless each one of the staff members to be a light of hope for the families that they work with on a daily basis.  I am grateful that God included Mott’s hospital to be a part of our journey with Josie!

 

Thank you for letting me share…….

 

Sarah M. Sobel

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Another great Doctor visit!

We met with Dr. Grifka and his team on Monday! ( got to love Megan, Jason and Ernie) they all make taking Josie to the doctor fun! It is getting harder to keep our girl still....but she did it!!

Her fix is great! And her heart is still going down to size, not quite normal yet...but getting close!!

We are thankful for J's continue progress and are hopeful that she will not face any restrictions as we move forward...


Thanks for the prayers!

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Sweet Sawyer

We never even met Sawyer because he was in the I C U during our stay at Motts, but we met his mama and daddy ( Danielle and Jordan) and we are requesting prayers for them. Sawyer's heart is healed He is now in Heaven....but I can imagine his parents pain.....please take a moment to say a prayer for this family....May God give them peace...

Sunday, July 14, 2013

An update from Josie's follow up appt last Monday...

Today we give praise for a good, actually great report for our Josie Mae.

We met with Dr. Grifka at U of M clinic at Metro in G R. This morning, and it seems as though everything has progressed just perfectly!

1. Josie's scar (her mark of triumph) is healing perfectly!
2. Her blood oxygen levels are perfect!
3. Her heart is already decreasing in size.
4. We get to decrease her medicine doses for 2 more weeks, and then she is off everything.
5. Play dates can resume next week.
6. Follow up in 6 weeks, and then 6 months, another 6 months, then...every year!

We are so grateful for the prayers!

Love, The Sobels!

Friday, June 28, 2013

So Thankful....

A week ago this time, we were waiting on Dr. Ohye to give us the run down on how surgery went....now I am sitting back at home folding laundry while J sleeps....life is pretty much back to normal! We are so so thankful for the blessing that God has placed on our life. and we are so thankful for the blessing that each one of you was/is  to us! The prayers, cards, gifts, and meals really brought us through the difficult days.

Please continue to pray for:

1. Healing for Josie
2. Josie has become really attached to us through the process.....now, she is not okay if
I am out of her sight...pray that she becomes comfortable again. I think she just used to someone holding her all the day....but, I would have changed how we did things either.
3. Josie hates taking medicine! She is just on Tylenol and Motrin for pain, but it is difficult to get her to take them...gums get locked! Pray that she takes them to help with her pain...

When I started the blog, I titled it Enlarging our hearts....and that has defiantly happened. Our hearts have been enlarged! We met many new friends at U of M , many other mamas and daddy's who were being the strength for their kiddos....if you can...add Abby, Sawyer, Samuel to your pray list...Praying for a miracle in their lives as well!

Thanks again for the support!

Love, Sarah

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

We are home!

Yes, it is pretty unbelievable! Josie is clearly happy to be home!

So much more to write, but thank you for the prayers!

Monday, June 24, 2013

Chest Tube

Josie's chest tube is coming out at 10 am, this can be a bit painful, so she will be sedated a bit.

Prayers apperciated.



Sunday, June 23, 2013

All is well!

I started a email about all the adventures of this weekend, but realized I do not have time to write the whole story yet...so I will give just a quick update of the latest ...

*josie was breathing on her own at midnight the night of her surgery!

*josie ate 10 oz in the 36 hours after surgery!

*josie was out of the I C U on Saturday at 3:00 pm, just 32 hours after surgery!

*she did have a nasty reaction to the morphine and Benadryl, but since then has been doing great!

*chest tube is hopefully coming out tomorrow

*sounds like we will be home Tuesday or Wedmesday....

We have been so blessed on this journey by the love and prayers of others. Thank you for showing us love in some of our hardest days!

Much love! The Sobels






Friday, June 21, 2013

We should be able to see Jose in about 30 minutes...

She did great! No surprises while we were in there!

Thanks be to GOD!

The fix is done...

The surgeon has made the fix, Josie 's heart is beating on its own..

Surgery Update Number 1-....

We made great friends with Kelly (a nurse practitioner with the anesthesiologist team) yesterday....She is a God sent! Laurie was on prayer duty for the nurses that we came in contact, so thank Laur for praying hard for the jewel she is...

She is not on Josie case today, but has taken it upon her self to friend Josie, and she followed her to the OR, and watched her be put to sleep...She said Josie went to sleep in the Josie way that she would..One minute, looking around at around, pulling on the caps of the nurses, and the next minute, just went to sleep for a little "nap"...

I wanted to share with you what Kelly wrote in the book, Zip Line (thank Brown Family!!), that I am having people write in for Josie...

____________
Josie-

Happy Solstice beautiful girl! It is so perfect that a girl so full of sunshine gets her perfect little heart fixed on the brightest day of the year, Thank you for letting me be a part of "team Josie" for even just a little while! Love, Kelly
__________________

A little orange and blue...Let's go Hope....

Josie is off to surgery, and yes We broke down, for a moment, but now we are praying and believing, that God has this in his hands!

Everyone said this morning, we will take good care of her!!!

When I packed for the hospital this week, I did not know what to pack, so I made it easy on myself, and only packed things that were orange and blue, Why? Because Orange and Blue symbolize Hope for me...Literally yes, because it is my alma mater, but also because I love the word Hope! I love what it stands, for and it just brings me peace...

So if you have not gotten dress yet...Maybe put on a little orange and blue this morning....We have HOPE for Josie that she is going to do great!

Thank you for the prayers! Lets have HOPE!


Sarah

He's got the whole world in his hands...

Can you sing it once for little Joster? :)

1. He´s got the whole world in His hands,
|: He´s got the whole world in His hands, :|
He´s got the whole world in His hands.

2. He´s got the wind and the rain in His hands,
|: He´s got the wind and the rain in His hands, :|
He´s got the whole world in His hands.

3. He´s got the the tiny little JOSIE in His hands,
|: He´s got the the tiny little JOSIE in His hands, :|
He´s got the whole world in His hands.

4. He´s got you and me, Andrew, in His hands,
|: He´s got you and me, Andrew, in His hands, :|
He´s got the whole world in His hands.

5. He's got ev'rybody here in His hands.
|: He's got ev'rybody here in His hands. :|
He's got the whole world in His hands.


Thursday, June 20, 2013

Today was good.....

Oh I wish I had the energy to write...but I will write just a bit. Today went great! Josie did awesome! Every doctor and/or nurse reassured us that she is going to do great! And for the first time, I am feeling the confidence as well.  Thank you for the prayers, and the support to get us there....We have to be at the hospital at 630 am, and will say our see ya laters at 730 to Josie Mae....hopefully all will be done by 11:30. Prayers! Prayers! Thank you!


Wednesday, June 19, 2013

...and we pray....

It has been a tough day for Andrew and I, probably the toughest one yet...as reality has now finally hit us. Our precious little Jose is heading into a major surgery in just 36 hours.

I am not sure what to say or do....I can't seem to get myself to complete anything...dishes are half done, we are half packed...every time I start to finish things I just need to sit down, and wrap sweet Josie up in my arms.  I just want the next 48 hours to fly by if the results are good, but if they are not, I want to be trapped in this moment for the rest of my life!

I am not sure if  it will be possible to have peace and sleep for Andrew , Josie and I tonight  ( or our parents) but, We Will pray for it! So pray if this incredibly hard time, God lays he hands upon us...and His presences s so heavy we can't deny it!

We leave tomorrow at 5 am, to be at U of M by 9 for a day full of tests. I will update as I can....

Thank you all for the love and support...

Andrew and Sarah


Thursday, June 13, 2013

A little ear infection...

Asking for prayers...Josie came down with a bit of an ear infection, please pray that she recovers fast! And the Doctor does believe that she is good to go!

Thank you!


Help Along the way....

My Cousin, Melissa sent out this e-mail this week...Thank you Mel for putting our needs in words....

Thought I would post it here for those of you who did not receive it...Thank you! 

Dear friends and family of Andrew, Sarah, and Josie Sobel,

As Josie's surgery date is quickly approaching (Friday June 21), there have been many people who have requested ways to help/serve this wonderful family. Prayer is always coveted and would be greatly appreciated, especially on the day of surgery, but if you would like to help in a more tangible way, here are a few options that we would love for you to help with. 

1. The family will be heading out to Ann Arbor (University of Michigan CS Mott Children's Hospital) on Thursday June 20 in preparation for the surgery. They will be staying at the Med Inn (located on the UM Hospital campus) for almost a week and will need to buy meals. To help make their stay a little more comfortable, a care basket is being put together. Here are a few ideas for items to be included in the basket:

 - Cookies
 - Breads/muffins
 - Trail mix
 - Dark chocolate
 - Other snacks
 - Gift cards to area restaurants with delivery
 - Prepaid credit cards for groceries and UM hospital cafeteria food
 - Notes of love and support

Any of these items can be sent/brought to either:

Lois Bolman
Attn: Team Josie
1002 E. 10th St. 
Holland, MI 49423

*Please call or e-mail if you are going to drop something off (616-392-1084 or glbolman@gmail.com)

-or-

Sara Rose
Attn: Team Josie
4571 Ciderwood Dr.
Walker, MI 49534

*Please call or e-mail if you are going to drop something off (616-453-6235 or rosejs1@sbcglobal.net)


2. If you would like to provide the family with a meal before or after they return from the hospital, there has been a website set up to help coordinate all those who want to help. The link to the website is:


Please sign in and select a date on which you would like to provide a meal! If you have any questions, please feel free to contact me (melissabebej@gmail.com) and I can try to help.

3. Again, prayers would be greatly appreciated. Sarah will continue to update Josie's blog with as much up-to-date information as possible to provide specific prayer needs as she continues her journey:


Thank you again for all your help and support during this time of trials. This is a great opportunity for God's grace and love to be shown through his people, and I really hope you will be able to help in some way.

Blessings,
Melissa Bebej (Sarah's cousin)

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Trying to sleep....

I can't sleep tonight...not really a big surprise for me! Since the calendar turned to June, sleep has been difficult for me.  I am glad that J has no idea what is going on.

Not sure what to write as we wait...Josie continues to love life...laughing and smiling most of the time! I am so thankful for the gift she is to me and Andrew and so many others!

Prayers will be appreciated for us this week, as we seem to countdown the long days. J is just getting over a bit of a cold. But otherwise she is doing great!









Monday, May 13, 2013

A date has been set ...Friday- June 21

Last week went fairly well, many of our prayers were answered...

1. We felt comfortable with the surgeon...Dr. Ohye  ( I have included his bio here so that you can all get a peak into him)...http://med.umich.edu/cardiac-surgery/patient/team/ohye.shtml

2. Josie travelled quite well...

3. We have decided to move forward with open heart surgery, and as of this morning, we have decided the date of Friday, June 21, 2013...

We appreciate your prayers, as we move forward in our month of waiting...

Love,

Sarah


Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Headed to Ann Arbor...

I will try to write more later, but as for write now, I am just writing for prayers for a clear direction for our family. When we met with U of M, for a second opinion they do not believe that a heart cath is the way to go, they believe open heart surgery is the best for Josie. To get a better feel for the team at U of M, we are headed to Ann Arbor today to meet with the surgeon.

I ask ( rather I beg of you) to please pray for the following as we start today...

1. May it be black and white to all of us what path we should take...(ie: what procedure and when?)
2. May it be very clear to us when we should be doing this procedure.
3. Safe Travels
4. That Josie is a great traveler today, she did well on our trip to Chicago a couple of weeks ago, but I pray that she can be that great traveler again.
5. And please just pray for peace of our hearts....

Thank you advanced from all of us, including our little feisty Josie!

Friday, April 12, 2013

And we are ....cautiously optimistic

We spent a few hours again at DeVos on Tuesday. This time we took Grandpa and Grandma Sobel along. There is another new doctor at Spectrum that is also from England, this new doctor, Dr. Joseph specializes with Interventional Cardiac Catheterizations, (it is a procedure to treat the heart defect with using a catheter (small plastic tube) that goes to the heart from blood vessels in the legs or the neck.) Dr. Joseph reviewed Josie's pictures, and believes that quite possibly her defect might be able to be fixed through this procedure! Which would be excellent, recovery time is just 1 night in the hospital, and that would be about it! Which would be amazing. The only situation is that they will not know for sure if the they will be able to work using the heart catharization until they are actually performing the procedure...And because this Doctor is new to DeVos, he needs some time for his team to be up and running. Which means that we would have to wait until June or July for the procedure...So it would be a lot more waiting, but the waiting would be all worth it, if this would fix Josie.

As I posted we are cautiously optimistic, but because of this sudden turn in direction, we have been thinking we would for sure be facing open heart surgery since Feb. 27, we feel that it would be in our best interest to get a second opinion, we are heading to meet with a U of M doctor (Dr. Ron Grifka), in a GR clinic, on Wednesday, April 24th

Please pray for us that it is clear decision about the direction we should go...I am thankful for this hopeful news, and I beg for prayers in advance that the Interventional  Heart Catheterization wherever we have it performed is successful!

In the mean time, since we are not sure of the exact procedure date, I am no longer house bound :)! AMEN!  We are just enjoying the joys of Josie being almost 6 months old! She is just a joy, and as her little personality is growing, we are just loving the smiles that she brings us daily!

Friday, April 5, 2013

Newer equipment...

Josie will NOT be having her the heart catharization on Wednesday, it has once again been moved to a date that has not been determined yet....We are still meeting with the doctor that is going to be preforming the heart catharization on Tuesday to hear about his plan for the heart cath...but, he wants to wait to schedule the appt until the new equipment is in...

I think our robust Josie is moving the powers at DeVos to get the most up to date equipment :) Way to go Jose!

So please continue to pray for the team of surgeons, doctors, and nurses as they continue to study J's case, and make the best plan for her..


Thursday, March 28, 2013

More tests..more sedation...more waiting...

Doctors would like to have more pictures, so Josie will have more tests (sorry I am blanking on the name of the tests they are going to be doing) they initially scheduled the tests for the 3rd, but we just got a call this morning that the tests are going to be on the 10th now...The test requires sedation for Josie (via IV) and fasting for Josie...BOO! But, both Andrew and I say that it is better that the surgeon goes in with the most information He can..so we understand the reason for the pictures.

So we wait for the 10th...

The warmer weather has helped us, we have been able to get out for some walks, and to see some sunshine! A little of Vitamin D, can go a long way...

Friday, March 22, 2013

Josie is ROBUST!

" Your daughter is absolutely darling...and clearly very robust!"

I had to google the definition of robust, when we got home from our appt. yesterday...but I think it is good that Dr. Haw sees our little Miss Josie as robust :)!

Definition of  ro·bust : (of a person, animal, or plant) Strong and healthy; vigorous.

So the appt. with Dr. Haw went pretty well.
Points from the appt.
1. Dr. Haw was not satisfied with the pics, so we need to do some more pics of Little Miss Josie's heart...The Nurse Practitioners that we are working with was going to be off today, so she will call us on Monday to schedule that appt.  Since, Josie is doing so well that there is no current rush on surgery, it is just easier to do now, since she will not remember it when she is older, and hopefully her heart will go back to normal size....
2. Dr. Haw has only seen the location of Josie's heart defect, one other time, but He did share that how you fix it, is the same as the other locations...He said that if we went to U of M, he would be quite certian that the  Doctor has probably seen it only  1 or maybe 2 times as well...Our Baby girl is that unique and special :)
3. Dr. Haw has done over 7,000 heart surgeries! He eased us with confidence that because Josie is so healthy and robust, that he believes that she will do great!!!!! I have never been so proud of my daughters chubby little legs :)
4. It was incrediably hard to hear the facts about the surgery, the fact that they will have to stop Josie's heart from beating on her own for about an 1 hour, I instantly started shedding tears, How I wish that I could put myself in Josie's shoes....


So the next steps from here....If all goes as planned....
1. More pics ( hopefully we can get these done in the next 2 weeks)
2. We schedulue surgery
3. We have a pre-op visit with the social worker, tour the PICU, and get aquainted with DeVos facitlities.
4. Surgery...
5. Hospital stay of hopefully 5-7 days
6. Josie is on strict recovery for 2 weeks..
7. Josie is on modified recovery for 4 weeks...
and then...hopefully after all those steps, Josie will be on her way to enjoying her first summer, with lots of time in the pool and at the lake....

and so we continue...one day at a time....





Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Thursday is getting closer...

and as Thursday approaches, my anxiety increases....

please continue to pray that we know if this is the surgeon, also please pray that we hear the confidence in his voice, should he be "the one"...

and just pray for us...pray for peace.....

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Moving forward...

I received a call this morning from Dr. Haw secertary, Josie was talked about yesterday at the case consultation (an answered prayer)  and we have our pre-op consultation schedulued for next week Thursday (the 21st) with the Surgeon.

This means we are moving forward, which is good news, but also make the fact the Jose is having open heart surgery a bit more real.

Other good news from today, is that I was able to talk to the insurance company and as of March 1, U of M is considered "in network" which means that we still have the option of going to U of M, if needed. Our first choice would be to be at DeVos, but it is nice to know that we are not limited to DeVos because of insurance.

Please pray for the following items, as we prepare for next week...

1. Pray that it is clear to us, where the best place for Jose to have surgery is..
2. Pray for our emotions and hearts to be calm...I know for myself the thought of surgery passes through my mind about every 5 minutes. (and sometimes I do not think that my mind every has a break from thinking about the surgery...
3. That we can balance the difficulties of waiting for surgery, but yet continuing to try to bring meaning to each day.

I will write more later, but there is a little one that would rather be hanging out with her mama than napping.....Oh Jose, I love you so much ( even though you are more stubborn than your daddy and mama put together : ) --and that is stubborn!)






Monday, March 11, 2013

She did great!!!

Josie Mae did great! I will write more later, but the cardiologist believes they have all the pics they need. Next prayer request is that Josie is put on the list for case consultations this Wednesday, so we can move this process along....Thank you all for the prayers....from Seattle to D C ...to AZ and CO, and many other places...we feel them!

Still sleeping...

Yeah! J is still sleeping, we are at the hospital and waiting for them to take us back, she is doing great! Answered prayer already!

Friday, March 8, 2013

Refusing to worry (Or at least trying to)...

It seems as though  the whole month of March , thus far, in the book, Jesus Calling has been written just for me!

March 4, challenged me...

"Refuse to worry! In this world there will always be something enticing you to worry. That is the nature of a fallen, fractured planet: Things are not as they should be. So the temptation to be anxious is constantly with you, trying to worm its way into your mind. The best defense is a continual communication with Me, richly seasoned with  thanksgiving. Awareness of My Presence fills your mind with Light and Peace, leaving no room for fear. This awareness lifts  you up above your circumstances, enabling you to see problems form My perspective. Live close to ME! together we can keep the wolves of worry at bay. "

So that is where I have been this week...

We do not know anything more as of right now...

Just please continue to pray for:
*Josie's test on Monday
*That the tests go smoothly despite the fact that J's sleep and eating habits will be challenged.
*That the photos that we receive on Monday are adequate for a "Blueprint" for the surgeon for surgery. And that we do not need to have Josie endure additional tests..

We are grateful for the prayers and love....Our Pediatrician called to check in with us this week....She shared that she has had many kiddos go through Open Heart surgery, and they do great! She assured us that she would be thinking about us, and cheering Josie on as well...It is great to feel like we have another player on our team!

I will update soon after Monday to share how things went for Little Miss Josie Mae...

But, for the bottom of our hearts, thank you for the prayers, and  love!






Thursday, February 28, 2013

Our Josie...

I can think of a million and 1 things I could and maybe should be doing right now.  One of them is sleeping, I should be sleeping! Sorry Mom and Andrew that I am writing this, and not sleeping because Josie is sleeping. I just feel like I need to share more, I feel like I need to convince everyone to pray for Josie. I know that you are all praying for her, but there is something as a mama, where you want to beg and plead with people, that they know exactly how precious this little one is to you! I want everyone to feel like this world can't go on without this little bundle of joy, because this mama needs her...I really feel like the world needs Josie!

So here is a bit more on our Josie.... because I can't help but share more about the little 14 lb - 25 1/2 inch baby that has rocked her mama and daddy's world...And we will never be the same!

Most newborns sleep a lot, Josie was born at the same time as a lot of my friends had babies, oddly enough also that most of these friends have had girls...So you can't help but hear, and share stories with each other about their babies, and yours often the stories are about sleeping habits...Josie quickly became a pretty good sleeper at night, but during the days, I would beg with her and try everything for her to take naps, but my little girl would rather be observing the world, or hanging out with mama. I would get frustrated that I couldn't seem to accomplish much during the day, because if she would nap, it would be just a quick cat nap. The past two or three weeks we have more of a rhythm and she is now taking more naps, but overall when it comes to it...She likes to be apart of the action and observe everything that is going on...

Josie LOVES her daddy....and HE loves her...Josie gave her first smile to Andrew, and her first giggle. It is a true gift to see Andrew interact with his baby, and how they light each other up...

Josie has already obtained quite the nicknames...Jose (Like Jode- with an S) is probably what we call her the most, we have also been known to throw out Joster, (thanks Laurie for that one!), Josie Mae, Miss J, J, Jo Jo, precious, sweetheart, and I can think of a few more....but she does have the nicknames, probably not as many as her friend Emma, but we do love calling her with affection.

Josie is active! If you were around to see my belly during pregnancy you would think there were two babies inside! It was the coolest thing to watch her move, and she is still a very active 4 month old baby. She will sit and observe when she is in the arms of someone she knows, but quite often she prefers to be standing, kicking on her play mat, or jumping in her jumparoo. Andrew and I were just commenting on last night that we think she is getting bored with just sitting, it is like she wants to crawl, you put her down, and she uses her legs to try to move, even though she is going no where!

Also her new thing is grabbing, and kissing...Yesterday she was grabbing her Grandma Bolmans cheeks, and literally opening her mouth to kiss my mom! I wear the cross necklace that Andrew made me everyday, and everyday I am thankful that it is still in tact at the end of the day. When she gets a bottle she likes to hold it herself, when I tried pulling it away from her yesterday, I honestly could not do it, without exhibiting a bit of force, this girl is strong! And she is going to need to be!!!

I am sure each day I will think of more things that I want to share with people about the little girl who has rocked my world...and so many other peoples world. I plead with God, that He will protect her, that she will be able to rock so many more peoples worlds, with her smile, and her personality, that I am positive she is going to shine to the world...

We love you Josie Mae....even when there is sleepless nights...and never ending dirty diapers ...

You are an absolute gift!!





Wednesday, February 27, 2013

A long 48 hours..

It is amazing all the emotions that one can go through in 48 hours...

Monday Morning: I was feeling great, I always feel a little rushed to get out the door with a baby...and trying to have my stuff put together. But, I did it...My mom graciously offered to go to the appt with me on Monday morning, we really thought it was going to be nothing, but Josie always seems to require multiple outfit changes when we  go to the doctor (not sure what that is about) so I was grateful for the help.

Mid Monday Morning: Josie is a trooper, going through the first tests with no complaints, playing with Sophie the Giraffe, the Doctor comes in listens to Josie's hearts, shares that he hears the Heart Murmur that she was sent her for, but believes that it is just a minor murmur, but suggested that while we were there, we should get an ultrasound done on her heart...So we sign some more papers, and are taken into a ultrasound room, where Josie lays on a warm blanket, and I try to distract her for the next 30 minutes, while the ultrasound is completed. My mom called Andrew before his break was done at 12:30 to let him know that we are still in the midst of testing, but that we would call him at his next break. I knew in my heart that the Doctor/Tech had found something...You could just see it in the way, they acted. At 12:35, Josie had enough! She was hungry, and tired..and started crying. The Doctor understood, and called quits on the tests.  The doctor left the room, and allowed for me to dress Josie and feed her, in a matter of 15 minutes she was our happy baby again...

So when the Doctor returned to the room, he shared with us that Josie has a rare heart defect...he shared more about it, but then he says, in order to repair it, it will require open heart surgery...My my eyes flood with tears, I look over at my mom who is bouncing Josie in her arms..and I am in shock, how is my perfect baby not perfect! For the next 20 minutes, I have no idea what the Doctor is saying, I think I took Josie back into my arms, while my mom wrote some notes, and hugged her..

My mom and I had huge plans to hit up the Qdoba in the children's hospital after the appt, but when we walked out of the room, I was thankful that I was still walking...We drove home, and sat, I could not get a hold of Andrew on his cell phone until 2:30, and I was not going to have him paged from the office, because that we cause him to alarm more than he needed to, so my mom and I sat and waited..Josie slept in her room, and we stared at the walls.

2;30 came, and I called Andrew...I said, I am not sure you want to hear the news over the phone, so he left work immediately...We met at the door of our house...and fell into each others arms..It is moments like those, when you are so thankful that you know God has brought you the most perfect teammate to navigate life with..

The rest of the night was spent sharing with our family, and loving on Josie.

Monday night we really did not sleep..Josie either, and when Andrew woke at 5:00 am for work, he found me lying next to Josie's crib, wrapped in her blanket. I crawled back in our bed only to feel like I needed prayers, and that is when I wrote and shared with friends...

Tuesday the heart doctor called back to say that the ultra sound with sedation for Josie is scheduled on March 11, when I was on the phone I asked the nurse if the Doctor could call my husband and explain Josie's situation since I was too emotional to take it all in, she said the Doc would do even better, and was willing to meet with us last night.

I do not know how Andrew got through the day at work, Andrew is amazing like that...He is stronger than I can dream of being...I spent the day at Sara's (sister -in-law) thanks for the lunch, and couch to sleep/cry on... I picked Andrew up at work ,and we headed to the doctors office....Dr. Schneider met and talked with us over 40 minutes. He shared that the defect of Josie is not the rare thing, it is the location of the defect. We talked surgery options, and he really believed it was in our best interest to stay in GR. He shared that there are 8 pediatric heart surgeons in the state of Michigan, and Dr. Marcus Haw is #2 in experience. The #1 doc is in Ann Arbor, but he probably would not even perform the surgery, he would have a student do it, while he observed since this is not such a complicated surgery, it is just a rare spot. We shared with him our concerns, he heard our hearts, and both Andrew and I walked out of there feeling pretty confident.

Details:
*March 11 is Josie's ultra sound with sedation, she has to be without food for 8 hours, for my peanut, this is going to be hard! Pray for her already, that her midnight feeding that night, will allow her to last until after the appt. We need to pray for a miracle here!
*Surgery will most likely take place in late March / April. The doc did not believe that there were any advantages in waiting.
*The part of surgery of repairing the defect will take roughly 90 minutes, but the whole process of it, will take a whole morning + a bit more..
*Josie will be in the hospital for aprox. 1 week.
*Josie started her heart medication yesterday, and she took it like a trooper!
*We need to keep Josie healthy for surgery, so we probably will not be out and about much with her.

I can write this today, with only a few tears, which I believe accounts for the prayers, that are being spoken on our behalf...Thank you..

Yesterday, we received a lot of love, some of the words, that were spoken over us...

"God is stronger than all our fears and hurt"
"Josie is a warrior, she is going to live an amazing life, and be a stronger person"
"I have put Josie's picture on my desktop, to remind me to pray for her.."
"Lord, Allow Sarah and Andrew to trust you more, than fear the situation that faces them..."
"I have complete Faith that God will heal Josie"
"I am storming Heaven's gates in prayer for you!"
"My way is better than yours. Don't try to figure out what is happening. Simply trust Me and thank Me in advance for the good that will come out of it all. I know the plans I have for you, and they are good. "

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**Francesca Battistelli- Strangely Dom

(a portion of the lyrics)

"I don’t know I don’t know

What tomorrow may hold
But I know, but I know
That You’re holding it all
So no matter what may come

I’m gonna fix my eyes on all that You are
‘Til every doubt I feel
Deep in my heart
Grows strangely dim
Let all my worries fade
And fall to the ground
I’m gonna seek Your face
And not look around
Til the place I’m in
Grows strangely dim


Thank you for these words, and many of the other words and prayers that you have shared, we feel them. I believe it was your prayers, that allowed for Andrew and I to sleep last night.

Please continue to pray for:
*March 11
*Wisdom of the Doctors, the doctors are going to consult on Josie's case together, I left them a picture yesterday of our little girl, I needed all the doctors to have Josie's face in front of them, when they are making big decisions, I needed them to see the face of my daughter, the warrior!
*Sleep
*Insurance dialogue...I am going to make sure to put these Social Workers to work at DeVos :) In helping me navigate the medical system which I know little about..

If you care to do so,  Josie has an e-mail address :) josiesobel@gmail.com / feel free to e-mail yours prayers to her, so that one day when she is big and strong, she will be able to read them. And know what an impact that the prayers were to her healing..

Okay, this is a really long post, but I think the writing of it, has already brought me some healing...

Love,

Sarah (Josie's proud Mama)

"We raise our white flag, we surrender, all to you, all to you,
Lord...."
 
I first heard this song on a friends facebook page (Thanks Kel) last
week, and we sang it in church on Sunday, and I think it is going to
be my theme song for the year....

On Monday we went to get Josie's innocent heart murmur checked out,
well at least we thought it was just a innocent heart murmur....But,
in all reality...Our precious little one, has a rare heart defect (so
rare that this is the first time the cardiologist has seen it in his
20 years of practice).The defect is correctable, but correctable
probably only by surgery... the doctor believes it is going to require
Josie to under go open heart surgery before the summer.

I do not even know what more to type, last night I spent the night
sleeping next to the Joster bed, praying that when I would wake up,
this would just be a bad dream, but its not....

Our next steps..
1. they took an ultra sound of Josie's heart, and she did great for
about 30 minutes ,but are not sure if the images that received were
adequate, so we might have to have her sedated for another ultrasound,
we will know that this week.
2. We start Josie on a medication, because her heart is enlarged
because of the defect. The medication, is supposed to manage the
enlargement.
3. We will meet with a surgeon at DeVos to see if he is able to
conduct the surgery, and to see what our level of confidence is in
him.....He was recruited by DeVos this last year from England, but we
still want the very best for our Josie, so we might need to travel to
Ann Arbor, or Detroit for the surgery. I just need to know that this
Dr. has done a few surgeries like Josie's before, even though it is so
rare....

The Cardiologist reinforced yesterday that this is correctable, and
very likely after this is repaired, Josie will go on to live a
productive life...But, does not take away the fact that I am scared to
death that my baby, is going to have to have major extensive surgery,
where I have to put her life in the hands of a team of surgeons, for a
long enduring surgery....

I will probably start a blog, just so people have a place to go to get
the post up to date info, but right now...We are trying to be strong.
When Josie woke up in the middle of the night last night, I was so
thankful, for the extra time that I had to hug her and love on her, I
was crying, and she just was laughing, and giggling at me, not what
she usually does for her middle of the night feedings, but I think she
just needed her mama to know, that she is going to be alright...

I have attached part of the write that I wrote about Josie's name
after her birth, one of my co-workers that I greatly admire from
Bethany(Love you Dena!)  told me about the importance and the power of the name you
place on your child, Andrew and I thought long and hard about Josie's
name and her meaning....I find it quite a sign from God, that Josie's
name means that HE will enlarge the world...Her heart is enlarged
now, but my hope is that GOD will enlarge the capacity of others to
love God, when they see the miracle that the doctors with God's help
are going to perform on Josie, to heal her, so that by her first
birthday she will be running around ..........................Oh Lord,
I pray! Hear my cry!

By life, I am usually such a communicator, but when hard news comes my
way, I often just need time to process, so feel free to call, e-mail,
or text, but please know that right now, I am learning to deal with
the news....

Please pray for us. and pray that we can sleep this week, pray that we
have wisdom with where we will have the surgery performed, and pray
that Andrew and I can be strong for each other.....

Love,

Sarah (for Andrew and Josie too)



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To share more about our little princess' name, Josie is a Hebrew name
that comes from Josephine, Josie's name means, "He will enlarge". The
meaning of Josie's name can be interpreted in many different ways.
When we think about her name, we think of passages such as , 1
Chronicles 4:10,where Jabez asks to increase his impact and his
territory. Our hope is that Josie will reach beyond herself to share
God's message, and that God will bring her wherever he needs to so
that she can be that message. As many of you know, Josie was a name
that Andrew and I picked before we were even pregnant, it was a name
for both of us that shared its own significance. When I studied
abroad in Dominican Republic (2003), my host sister's name is Josie.
Josie was (is) one of the most incredible giving person that I ever
met. Our friendship in that short 4 months has impacted my life. My
older host "sister" Ivonne named her little girl, Sarah after me, and
it was always talked about if I had a girl, I would name her Josie to
honor Josie, I always hoped, but was never sure that whoever I married
would be on board with the name. Andrew, first heard the name Josie
from the movie, The Outlaws of Josey Wales, starring Clint Eastwood,
as a big time Clint fan, Andrew has always loved the name Josie!

Mae is a bit of a family tradition. My mom is Lois Mae after her
aunt, I am Sarah Mae after my mom, and now Josie Mae, is Josie Mae
after 3 generations of women. It brings us such joy to be able to have
Josie share the name Mae with her great great aunt Edith, but also my
mom. If there is one thing that I have learned through the 40 weeks of
pregnancy I have learned just a bit about the sacrifices that our
parents, but especially our moms have made for their children from the
minute they take the pregnancy test. Mom, I hope that Josie will learn
the importance of enlarging her world to share God's love, like you
have, and my host sister Josie has done..